LET GO

let go 

i own nothing 

i am nothing 

let it all go 

all i need is here 

though it is not mine 

i CHOOSE 

this or that to speak, sing, dance, be 

i CHOOSE which way to walk, run, fly, jump

i fall, scream, cry, break my heart, break hearts

i climb up, fall down, climb again, fall again, and then choose 

move the stone, climb over the stone, find another path

i let go

i own nothing 

i am nothing

i choose

this point of connection 

my body touching yours 

give me your weight as i give you mine 

balance and counterbalance and weight sharing 

i let go 

you hold on 

my foot lifts 

yours remains grounded

swing me in a pendulum 

my weight is yours

this body is ours 

gravity, a blessed friend 

this point of connection 

our eyes linked as you pivot around my center of gravity 

wrists strongly interlinked 

i can feel your heart beating through your fingers 

i commit to connection 

but feel like there is not even time to connect with myself 

we are interwoven links of community 

every person i pass by is... a person 

utterly human 

with breath, heartbeat, thoughts, emotions 

and a fluttering something which brings light to eyes and makes each connection colorful, unique, amazing, beautiful

we call it "shen" in chinese 

softly touch me, for i am made of delicate butterfly winds and wings

do not touch me, for i am made of dragon fire and mountain avalanches 

i can destroy you 

i can lift you up 

i can 

i choose

i am 

every single raindrop unique 

every moment different and never to be repeated again 

each breath arising and passing, arising and passing 

all i can think about and feel is mountains, forests, desert, human body, universe

battling with societal and familial expectations 

different colors and pieces of jiling screaming and ripping against each other

pulling and pushing in all directions 

thousands of small atoms and cells birthing and dying, birthing and dying

why can't i let go of this tension in my left hip? 

let go 

let go 

let go