9.02.2010

floating falling flying being

legends

there is an old chinese myth
of a giant named peng gu 
i want to share it with you 
a story of strength, balance, 
and complete giving and surrender

journeying again

yesterday i deleted and uploaded a bunch of photos 
today i did a fire ceremony and burnt many things 
yesterday i strained many plant oils and vinegars into smaller jars 
today i consolidated many salves and balms into smaller jars
gifts and such 
plant days 
reminiscing days of giving thanks and saying farewell
i will see you in Dreamspace but not in present time again, soon 
sadness, joy, and celebration
and a lot of work!
so much time spent indoors 
organizing and divvying 
i wonder 
what new plants wait at my door 
as i step from this space into another world
yet unknown 
i wonder 
what new friends wait to receive me 
as i step 
with so much emptiness 
into a seeming black hole whole of 
unknowing? 
i wonder 
what new gifts are waiting
i wonder 
what unknown blessings
already on the way 
await
and smile at me as i pack 
and gather up my pack and my wits 
gathering all of myself 
as i journey forth
again
again 
again
?

fire

cleansing, radiating, transformative
devouring and composting
we are walking in the sun
bless these closed eyelids that dream 

(fire ceremony today)

9.01.2010

summer 2010

thank you for sharing these experiences with me... either in person, or in heartspace! 

big Love
me
jiling

post-Quest and photos with Efan

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=2730762&id=2514403&l=8baf895bb2

back in ct

am back in connecticut 
landed to a happy reunion with elder bill and bethany family of brenda, marie, cats, chickens, alpacas, and many apples!
drum circle at night
so many molded herbs stored incorrectly...
clothes to give away
things to pack up
am leaving here again in a week 
and then off to california 
and then onwards!
ever onwards
this time to taiwan 
many questions from many people 
the questions drive me a little nutty 
but they are also good questions 
that make me think 
sooo 
exactly what am i doing? 
and who i am now? 
good questions 
medicine woman, rising

death
death to old ways and patterns of being that no longer serve me 
death to old clothes that no longer fit 

phoenix rising
ataris rising 
ever rising 
from these composting ashes of death
into newness

butterfly dreams
it's all just butterfly dreams 

there's mold on my shoes
i watched moon rise last night
and sun rise this morning
ever rising from the ashes 
cycle continuing flow on
songs that come and go from my mind
resonating with the inexplicable hum of singing bowls 
resonant universe

8.30.2010

together

i am speaking with you again 
my best friend
my sweet darling and dear
earth, water, fire, air
elements and spirits 
of seen and unseen
i am walking with you again 
and i am so grateful 
for all of you
buoyantly grounding
as we flow