journeying again

yesterday i deleted and uploaded a bunch of photos 

today i did a fire ceremony and burnt many things 

yesterday i strained many plant oils and vinegars into smaller jars 

today i consolidated many salves and balms into smaller jars

gifts and such 

plant days 

reminiscing days of giving thanks and saying farewell

i will see you in Dreamspace but not in present time again, soon 

sadness, joy, and celebration

and a lot of work!

so much time spent indoors 

organizing and divvying 

i wonder 

what new plants wait at my door 

as i step from this space into another world

yet unknown 

i wonder 

what new friends wait to receive me 

as i step 

with so much emptiness 

into a seeming black hole whole of 

unknowing? 

i wonder 

what new gifts are waiting

i wonder 

what unknown blessings

already on the way 

await

and smile at me as i pack 

and gather up my pack and my wits 

gathering all of myself 

as i journey forth

again

again 

again

?

fire

cleansing, radiating, transformative

devouring and composting

we are walking in the sun

bless these closed eyelids that dream 

(fire ceremony today)

summer 2010

thank you for sharing these experiences with me... either in person, or in heartspace! 

big Love

me

jiling

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post-Quest and photos with Efan

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back in ct

am back in connecticut 

landed to a happy reunion with elder bill and bethany family of brenda, marie, cats, chickens, alpacas, and many apples!

drum circle at night

so many molded herbs stored incorrectly...

clothes to give away

things to pack up

am leaving here again in a week 

and then off to california 

and then onwards!

ever onwards

this time to taiwan 

many questions from many people 

the questions drive me a little nutty 

but they are also good questions 

that make me think 

sooo 

exactly what am i doing? 

and who i am now? 

good questions 

medicine woman, rising

death

death to old ways and patterns of being that no longer serve me 

death to old clothes that no longer fit 

phoenix rising

ataris rising 

ever rising 

from these composting ashes of death

into newness

butterfly dreams

it's all just butterfly dreams 

there's mold on my shoes

i watched moon rise last night

and sun rise this morning

ever rising from the ashes 

cycle continuing flow on

songs that come and go from my mind

resonating with the inexplicable hum of singing bowls 

resonant universe

together

i am speaking with you again 

my best friend

my sweet darling and dear

earth, water, fire, air

elements and spirits 

of seen and unseen

i am walking with you again 

and i am so grateful 

for all of you

buoyantly grounding

as we flow

hello world!

i love you too

gathering the storm

everything is moving
as perfectly as it needs to
be it fast or slow
the winds of change are blowing
sweet rhythmic ancient scents
wild, exciting, distant, yet familiar
and i am dancing