August itinerary

7/26 - 8/6= staffing kids' farm camp and African dance theater camp at Orchard Hill Farm (NH)

8/6 - 8/8= Daughters of the Earth gathering at Earthlands (MA) (I need a ride down from NH, if you know anyone...)

8/9 - 8/14?= Earthstory gathering at Earthlands (MA) (and then I need a ride up to northern VT, if you know anyone...)

8/15 - 8/21= Vision Quest (VT) 

final two weeks of the month... don't know yet. I will probably hangout with Luz Elena in Brattleboro, VT. I want to see Keith, Mira, Efan, Jason, Kalyan, Darcey, and Sean sometime this summer, too. I also want some kind of backpacking / survival camping trip. So, hopefully a small extended visit to Keith's farm and/or Kalyan's new farm, too. 

... and then I plan to return to Connecticut before September 5 for the Red Tent that day, and then start Two Coyotes' autumn children's programs on September 6! 

desires

i really wanted!

to return to the desert

and work with "at-risk" youth

beautiful shining teenagers that society can't yet accept

and learn from plant-man doug

and a bunch of burros

and cacti 

and mountains

and a sky so big and wide

that my heart floods with blue

that merges with red

into the most vivid healing purple i've ever seen

as the hot desert rocks boom their deep booms 

and i know that 

we are held

i really wanted! 

to stay here and cultivate 

the relationships and seeds that i've set

and slowly watched sprout 

and am still blossoming 

so much love for so many people 

yet so often feeling so very 

alone 

and struggling

with restlessness and wants and needs and boundaries

boundaries 

don't cross my boundaries 

i am learning to see my boundaries 

and bravely state them when i need to

no more hiding them 

no more hiding 

i am stepping out into the sunshine 

from a morbid smoggy winter 

and sweating beads of mingled pain and pleasure 

the raw honesty of being alive and whole

with black, white, and all rainbow prismatic every nothings

swirled into a giant

center of the universe

cake!

cake

i really wanted!

yes i did! 

and i still do 

but i am learning

thank you

thank you 

for listening and watching and knowing and seeing

and holding and being

and being

just being 

thank you 

for all the prayers seen and unseen,

heard and unheard

for i feel them every time i cry into the wind

and she blows back with a kiss

and i know 

that i am blessed

with seen and unseen 

heard and unheard

thank you 

friends everywhere 

yes love

watching bats fly around at dusk
minnows gathering around my toes and nibbling them
while i am swimming in ice pond
of all places!
yes, ice pond
clouds pink, sky blue
back out into the great known unknown beautiful
yes