10.30.2011

love letters

love letters to the wind 
get ripped, torn, shredded and strewn all across the planet 
flying back some strange day 
to hit me in the chest
smacking all the air out of my lungs 
and lifting my heart high into sky, bouncing onto earth, and back again into my chest 
beating more rapidly than all the waterfalls in the world coalesced together into one resounding roar 
on this solid stone in the middle of all this rushing water with this beating heart of mine 
and all the shredded wind blown love letters swarming and swirling about me 
every desire to run away bites me like small fish 
small chunks of jiling falling bit by bit into wind, onto rock, into river,
dissolving self back into nothing everything love let 

10.27.2011

thai love 4


outdoor fire kitchen fantasticness with tadam, sandot, damien, and shen outside of pai, thai with wild-harvested yummy forest magic food 
and then feet? now here in taiwan with friends and beloved darlings galore 

dad says focus, focus, focus... whatever doesn't fit in with my focus, delete it from my packed schedule 
and so now... i am still asking the same questions in different places as usual, and wondering and setting lines 
make myself healthy 
eat balanced regular meals, cut out sugar, daily yoga/dance/taiji, sleep before 11 pm
figure out focus and walk it strongly and confidently with no distractions 
besides watching the lilies furling and unfurling their big leaves to all the billowing white clouds zipping thru this tender blue autumn sky

thai micro to macro 2

looove

thai micro to macro 1

welcome to thailand sprouts in big ceramic pots, this is where your rice comes from (3 rice plants will emerge from each pocket with so much food and protein), wild mushrooms (this is heaven), making baskets (we know where everything comes from), wild passionfruit (my personal favorite)... and china monarda (motherwort) on a backyard village slope (hello again, dear friend). 

this is where your herbs come from

southern china herb factory

NOW

There is NOTHING to be afraid of. 
There is NO risk. 
What's the worst thing that could happen? 
You could die? 
You will die anyways. 
And, most likely, you won't die anytime soon. 
You've got quite a long road ahead of you still, like it or not. 
But, time goes by quickly and it could all end in a millisecond. 
So, what do you CHOOSE to do with your ONE WILD AND PRECIOUS LIFE? 
WHAT ARE YOU DOING right NOW?
Are your actions in line with your values? 
Are you living the Life of your Dreams? 
If not... then WHY NOT? 
There is NOTHING holding you back. 
There is NOTHING to be afraid of. 
Once you commit to the jump, all the World will rush to hold and support you in preparation of your inevitable landing. 
And, that landing
that commitment 
that risk...
What is Life, if not one huge risk, one huge leap, one huge YES!
And then, another risk, another leap, another YES! 
And then another, and another... 
and sometimes they are leaps, 
and other times, they are just steps.
And every single time, it is a SURRENDER to all the Universe that sometimes whispers and sometimes shouts, 
I LOVE YOU! 
TRUST me. 
Live the Life of your dreams,
and jump. 
Do not be afraid, for THERE IS NOTHING TO BE AFRAID OF. 
Smile at the person sitting next to you on the subway. 
Climb that pretty tree with the inviting branches that you walk by everyday.
Flirt with the cutie you've been secretly staring at from the other side of the room.
Eat the cookies you've been saving for "that special occasion." 
The "special occasion" is NOW. 
Go to all the places you've always dreamed of going to. 
Money is not an issue. It will arrive when needed. 
Catch a bus ride to somewhere you've never been before, and just walk. 
Stick out your thumb, smile, see what happens. 
Dance in the streets. 
Sing songs to strangers. 
Show up in group photos with people you just met. 
Smell all the pretty flowers you pass by. 
Do all things you'd always said, "No, I wouldn't dare," or, "maybe tomorrow," or, "but..." 
If I commit to this flip, this leap, this spin, twirl, twist, full complete action that my body is fully CAPABLE of doing but my mind is AFRAID of doing... 
if I remain afraid, then I will fail. And I will, most miserably, fall. 
But, if I COMMIT to this action, and I TRUST... even in all my not knowing, I TRUST... 
then that trust places everything else in place for successful flight and a strong landing... and flip, leap, spin, twirl, or ANYTHING... yes, I can. Yes, I trust. YES! I dare. 
Our body-mind-heart-spirit selves are just as YES as we allow ourselves to be. 

找工作與休息

我今天整天呆在家裡休息, 睡覺, 做夢, 唸書, 與畫畫。。。 好爽哦!下午去植物園看蓮花和靜坐。。。 好棒, 好舒服。。。 
昨天曾老師給我針灸, 這幾天喝豆腐師哥的中藥, 跟阿凱師哥聊天。。。 我感冒一定會好的。今天。 now. 

又在找工作了。。。 需要很好的幫手嗎? :) 
am searching for taiwan jobs again... 
let me know if you need some excellent help ;) 

LOVE!!!