hmmmmm

when i 

hmmmmm

roots extend down 

from feet to

hmmmmm

earth

and then

deeper still

for mama earth, etc (yes yes, love love)

i like 

(quite so very much) 

the taste

(salty sweat taste like tears)

(open mouth as i walk thru the forest)

of you 

(you! all around and within and every me)

i like

(yes like the desert loves the rain)

the smell

(nostrils dilating to heartbeat rhythm mother)

(shadows smell different than sunlight)

of you

(you! again! as am i!)

i like 

(infinite and beyond universe yes)

the look

(we see each other. we really do)

(different colors that come from the same source)

of you

(love. that's all we are)

i like 

(yes yes yes)

the sound

(waves crashing of infinite oceans)

(open ears open eyes open heart)

of you 

(open everything courageous everything)

i love

(lovelovevolvelove)

the feel

(rhymthic mother heartbeat mine as yours)

(when i open i feel as i am)

of you 

(i love you

i love i)

mmm

sun-baked bones

i'm rising from my own ashes

so that i may better understand them 

and ride the flames as brightly 

as i as ashes float on the wind

and then bury back into the damp musk of

soil

random acts of soulful beauty

spritzing good smells in unexpected places 

like on street lamps and in train stations

(like frankincense, myrrh, sandalwood)

(or rose and lavender)

(mmm)

---

leaving little love-notes randomly everywhere

saying stuff like 

"thank you for being" 

or "are you happy?" 

or... 

:) 

---

guerilla chalk art

with loving messages and doodles

in the streets

---

flower arrangements left on strangers' doorsteps 

floating falling flying being

legends

there is an old chinese myth

of a giant named peng gu 

i want to share it with you 

a story of strength, balance, 

and complete giving and surrender

journeying again

yesterday i deleted and uploaded a bunch of photos 

today i did a fire ceremony and burnt many things 

yesterday i strained many plant oils and vinegars into smaller jars 

today i consolidated many salves and balms into smaller jars

gifts and such 

plant days 

reminiscing days of giving thanks and saying farewell

i will see you in Dreamspace but not in present time again, soon 

sadness, joy, and celebration

and a lot of work!

so much time spent indoors 

organizing and divvying 

i wonder 

what new plants wait at my door 

as i step from this space into another world

yet unknown 

i wonder 

what new friends wait to receive me 

as i step 

with so much emptiness 

into a seeming black hole whole of 

unknowing? 

i wonder 

what new gifts are waiting

i wonder 

what unknown blessings

already on the way 

await

and smile at me as i pack 

and gather up my pack and my wits 

gathering all of myself 

as i journey forth

again

again 

again

?

fire

cleansing, radiating, transformative

devouring and composting

we are walking in the sun

bless these closed eyelids that dream 

(fire ceremony today)