love letters

love letters to the wind 

get ripped, torn, shredded and strewn all across the planet 

flying back some strange day 

to hit me in the chest

smacking all the air out of my lungs 

and lifting my heart high into sky, bouncing onto earth, and back again into my chest 

beating more rapidly than all the waterfalls in the world coalesced together into one resounding roar 

on this solid stone in the middle of all this rushing water with this beating heart of mine 

and all the shredded wind blown love letters swarming and swirling about me 

every desire to run away bites me like small fish 

small chunks of jiling falling bit by bit into wind, onto rock, into river,

dissolving self back into nothing everything love let 

thai love 4

outdoor fire kitchen fantasticness with tadam, sandot, damien, and shen outside of pai, thai with wild-harvested yummy forest magic food 

and then feet? now here in taiwan with friends and beloved darlings galore 

dad says focus, focus, focus... whatever doesn't fit in with my focus, delete it from my packed schedule 

and so now... i am still asking the same questions in different places as usual, and wondering and setting lines 

make myself healthy 

eat balanced regular meals, cut out sugar, daily yoga/dance/taiji, sleep before 11 pm

figure out focus and walk it strongly and confidently with no distractions 

besides watching the lilies furling and unfurling their big leaves to all the billowing white clouds zipping thru this tender blue autumn sky

thai micro to macro 2

looove

thai micro to macro 1

welcome to thailand sprouts in big ceramic pots, this is where your rice comes from (3 rice plants will emerge from each pocket with so much food and protein), wild mushrooms (this is heaven), making baskets (we know where everything comes from), wild passionfruit (my personal favorite)... and china monarda (motherwort) on a backyard village slope (hello again, dear friend). 

this is where your herbs come from

southern china herb factory

NOW

There is NOTHING to be afraid of. 

There is NO risk. 

What's the worst thing that could happen? 

You could die? 

You will die anyways. 

And, most likely, you won't die anytime soon. 

You've got quite a long road ahead of you still, like it or not. 

But, time goes by quickly and it could all end in a millisecond. 

So, what do you CHOOSE to do with your ONE WILD AND PRECIOUS LIFE? 

WHAT ARE YOU DOING right NOW?

Are your actions in line with your values? 

Are you living the Life of your Dreams? 

If not... then WHY NOT? 

There is NOTHING holding you back. 

There is NOTHING to be afraid of. 

Once you commit to the jump, all the World will rush to hold and support you in preparation of your inevitable landing. 

And, that landing

that commitment 

that risk...

What is Life, if not one huge risk, one huge leap, one huge YES!

And then, another risk, another leap, another YES! 

And then another, and another... 

and sometimes they are leaps, 

and other times, they are just steps.

And every single time, it is a SURRENDER to all the Universe that sometimes whispers and sometimes shouts, 

I LOVE YOU! 

TRUST me. 

Live the Life of your dreams,

and jump. 

Do not be afraid, for THERE IS NOTHING TO BE AFRAID OF. 

Smile at the person sitting next to you on the subway. 

Climb that pretty tree with the inviting branches that you walk by everyday.

Flirt with the cutie you've been secretly staring at from the other side of the room.

Eat the cookies you've been saving for "that special occasion." 

The "special occasion" is NOW. 

Go to all the places you've always dreamed of going to. 

Money is not an issue. It will arrive when needed. 

Catch a bus ride to somewhere you've never been before, and just walk. 

Stick out your thumb, smile, see what happens. 

Dance in the streets. 

Sing songs to strangers. 

Show up in group photos with people you just met. 

Smell all the pretty flowers you pass by. 

Do all things you'd always said, "No, I wouldn't dare," or, "maybe tomorrow," or, "but..." 

If I commit to this flip, this leap, this spin, twirl, twist, full complete action that my body is fully CAPABLE of doing but my mind is AFRAID of doing... 

if I remain afraid, then I will fail. And I will, most miserably, fall. 

But, if I COMMIT to this action, and I TRUST... even in all my not knowing, I TRUST... 

then that trust places everything else in place for successful flight and a strong landing... and flip, leap, spin, twirl, or ANYTHING... yes, I can. Yes, I trust. YES! I dare. 

Our body-mind-heart-spirit selves are just as YES as we allow ourselves to be. 

找工作與休息

我今天整天呆在家裡休息， 睡覺， 做夢， 唸書， 與畫畫。。。 好爽哦！下午去植物園看蓮花和靜坐。。。 好棒， 好舒服。。。 

昨天曾老師給我針灸， 這幾天喝豆腐師哥的中藥， 跟阿凱師哥聊天。。。 我感冒一定會好的。今天。 now. 

又在找工作了。。。 需要很好的幫手嗎？ :) 

am searching for taiwan jobs again... 

let me know if you need some excellent help ;) 

LOVE!!!

venus

five rhythms: flowing, staccato, chaos, lyrical, stillness

each a single dance, together a circle 

five seasons, including the transitions between the seasons 

a time of great movement and resting 

five elements: water births wood, births fire, births earth, births metal, 

and then back to the source again, around and around 

and it's all connected

each a single dance, and together another circle 

circles within circles and intersecting circles 

chinese traditional dances and movement meditations in circles

western tradition moving in lines and angles 

five tastes, five emotions, five yin organs, six yang organs

correspondences moving and moving in on and on circles 

and i wonder how on earth does an alien who wants to be an earthling again manage to move back into the circle 

how does one summon up bravery to say, YO! i wanna be part of your circle 

and I'M NOT AFRAID to love and live and laugh

and cry so hard that all the neighbors poke their heads out the windows far enough for all the alien (who are not alien) plants and sky and other friends all SEE 

and smile 

been coughing now for a full month 

lungs/ chest area is connected with metal element

and time of autumn transition 

and too much internal fire 

and emotion of sadness 

everytime i see venus in the sky at night 

(she shines so brightly especially in the mountains, but even under the vegas-style nonstop city lights) 

i remember every place and all the people i know and love 

and i feel the love 

but i also feel sad 

it's one thing to say "i don't miss you... i love you know. and i know you know the difference." 

and it's another thing to feel like 

time passes by so quickly 

and i wonder when/ if i will ever see you again